The other day I had one of those panicked “I have nothing to wear” moments. I was standing there, staring at my closet, trying to find something interesting to put on, drawing a complete blank because all my clothes looked the exact same, in varying shades of black, grey, tan, and denim. No colors, no patterns. Typically this would just lead me to the realization that I desperately need to go shopping, but that day it turned into a major “aha” moment for me.
God has been really working on me lately, teaching me more each day about who I am in Him and what I’m capable of through Him. Through my little clothing crisis I realized that my love for grey and denim goes so much deeper than my wardrobe. I gravitate towards neutrals because I hate the spotlight and just want to blend in. Making small talk makes me cringe. I feel self-conscious when people read my work. I avoid speaking in meetings whenever possible. I’m not saying those are always bad things, but I’ve realized that for me, these traits have been holding me back from my true potential.
I’ve been too busy believing the lies that I’m not good enough, interesting enough, creative enough, smart enough, fill-in-the-blank enough, that I’ve been missing out on the colorful life that God has designed for me. He’s given me the gift of creativity, the ability to write, ideas to share, and love to give, but I’ve been too shy to step into that. I’ve been holding back because I’m afraid of failure and judgement.
A couple weeks ago, as I was thinking and praying about my 2017 goals, I felt God pressing something on my heart, that this year I need to work on letting go of self-doubt and step into His calling for my life. I’m not sure what that calling is just yet, but for now I’m going to start using my creativity and follow His lead. Enter: The Color Project.
Join me as I try new things, travel to new places, and find color in the every day.